My way

So it looks like doing two -challenge- like things at one isn’t my strong points. I was able to keep the #100dayproject going, but dropped the ball on the Effy blog a long.

So I’m going to try and do this my way.

I’m not going to beat myself up over it, or throw in the towel. What gets done gets done.

In other news, this beyond crappy weather has me wanting to curl up with a hot tea and a book. But the fact that I am poor and money doesn’t grow on trees has me going to work instead.
Tis the way the world works.

Okay, it’s time to go throw some paint around or, play with some metal stuffs. I’m not to sure yet

Stay beautiful!

Friday!

It’s my Friday!

That is one of the things I love about where I work. I’m only “part-time”. So that gives me a 4 day work week. I use to be 3, but when we lost our sales girl, the team needed an extra set of hands and I just never went back down to 3.

It’s okay. It gives me a little more cash in my – well I was going to say pockets, but really it is more like my bills get paid lol One of my goals this year is to make HUGE bent in my debt. I would like to have it all paid off if possible.

I don’t feel like I have much to day today.
I’m headachey. And wrung out from the week.

I’ll have more to say tomorrow!

A plan I say! A Plan!

I sat at work today with paint on my finger nails and a little spot on my finger.
I can not put into words what that felt like.

Kinda like heaven but with booze and calorie free cake and where Jason Momoa calls me Baby Girl and I call him Daddy Bear.

Yeah kinda just like that!

Today marks day 4 for me. 4 days of actively putting an effort into my forward motion.
Next week I’ll be rekindling my meditation And I have other sparks to re-light after that. But one burning passion at a time!

My work week is almost over. Which means I can finally get to fixing this site up. I’ve been gone for so long that so much has changed that I need some time to figure it all out. Like wtf are blocks and why do I need them!?!? And what the hell happened to my design? I know there use to be a banner here at one point in time.

Now that I’m thinking about it. I think I’ll get some snacks and spend this weekend fully engaged with my forward motion. I can rebuild this site, start the one I have for my social media hustle and throw some art in there for good measure.

Holy poop, I’m a girl with a plan!

Excited!

Today marks day one of the #100daysproject
I’m kinda stupid excited about it!

For those that don’t know. The 100 days project is a group playground, where people from all over the world create to their hearts content for 100 days. It be be paintings, drawings, music, fibers, writing. Anything. You just need to make something daily and post it to Instagram. People come up with wonderful themes. 100 days of abstracts. 100 days of faces. 100 days of flowers

My theme is pretty simple
100 days of creating.
I don’t care what it is. Just as long as I spend time creating something.

Like I said in my last post, I have been very disconnected from the creative part of me for the better part of 2 years. Which is slightly more than awful

My whole life I have had a creative outlet of some kind.
In the last 2ish years I have only touched my paints a hand-full of times
My metal and torch..even less

The worse part was I WANTED to be with my supplies
I would day dream about them, watch videos of people creating, buy classes, join contests, go to art supply stores and BUY material. All for it to be placed on a desk and not touched again.
I would actually sit at my metal table and look at all my supplies
Pick something up, dust it off, hold it, think of what I wanted to do with it
And in the end put it back and walk away.

But tonight, tonight that all changes
Tonight I will sit at my desk and play!
Here’ to day 1!

Round 2!

Here I am trying this again
But this time I’m coming in with no expectations

To much has happened since my last update
I want to share it all, but at the same time, it feels like emptying out my soul, and that is something I tend to do slowly and over a drink or ten.

So I’ll start with this and we will see where we end up.
Life has been hard. It’s been tricky. It has been large and in my face and loud.
So fucking loud

But I’m still here
Still standing – with breaks to sit and rest

I’m slowly finding my way back to myself and my creativity
Slowly letting my fingers trail over my art supplies and dusting off my desks
Sitting at my desk and letting my mind dream up colors and textures
Feeling metal between my fingers and cold glass beads in my palms

Fighting the pull of crawling into my bed and pulling the blankets up over my head
Not giving into the urge of disconnecting, and staring at my phone watching youtube videos

Slowly
Slowly, I’m coming back

Thanks for waiting around for me.

I lost a day!

I have no idea where today went
I swear!

I arted, I cleaned, I spent time flexing my social media muscle.

How is it already almost 7pm!

At least I got a lil something posted here
Even if I don’t top out at 50 words lol

46 words

Short and sweet

I keep trying to come with a blog post for the day
but everything seems forced and small and insignificant

So, I’m going to keep it short and sweet for today.

I had a meeting with boss’s girlfriend?…office manager?…she who is trying to wrangle all us ducks into some kind of order?…
It was about my plans for our social media.
It was awesome to have her listen and hear me out. She asked her questions and we discussed my answers, and near the end, she looked at me and said
You really do like this don’t you?
And I kind of laughed and said yes
She laughed with me and she said, I shows! I love it!

By the way – she loves my plans and what I want to do.

You know what? It just hit me…I’m in charge of the social media platforms of one of the leading men’s underwear brands.

Holy Fuck!

Arting and Growing

I slayed everything on yesterdays to do list and now I’m working my way down today’s
I know I’m only 3 days in to Do All The Things April, but I’m feeling good about it already.
Just getting things done, and planned, and organized feels good.

I did join up for the #100daysproject
Let’s hope this is the year I finish it

My theme this year is #artandgrow

My whole idea is that everyday for the next 100 days I’m going to do something that benefits me in some positive and uplifting way. Binge watching Netflix won’t do much for me, but practicing my art, or cleaning up my art space, digging deep into some spiritual awesome-ness or hell maybe even starting yoga, will!

But it will mostly be creating. Cause. Creating!

In other news. I plan to have my new website up and running by the end of the month.
What new website you ask? Oh, you know, the one that will tell you all about the social networking/media services I will be offering!

And there is my big scary for the day!

Reminders

A few weeks ago I decided that April was going to be my – all in – month.
The whole, go big or go home.
The one that is going to leave me panting but sated by the end.

Since then, I have been reminded nearly daily of that decision.
Today’s reminder was a pen my friend left behind for me on her last day at the job.
Just a little reminder that I got this. I can do this!

But it also reminded me that I have amazing people in my life
For someone who shies away from everyone when she is hurt or upset or “dealing”, it was a gentle nudge that I need to reconnect with the people that matter to me.

So, dear people that matter to me. I’m sorry for running away to hide. I’m sorry I couldn’t find the words to express what I was dealing with. Know, that even if I was cloaked in the shadows, I was still paying attention. I shared in your every joy. I sent out a silent prayer every time you hurt.

I missed you.
Please forgive me

And today’s big scary moment, was when I showed 3 of my co-workers the under-drawing of my current work in progress.
It was totally out of my comfort zone. But this is do all the things April!