The things I know

So, I have this thing that I have been thinking about for a few days now.
I know I know all about it. I know I know what I have to do to fix it
I know I have been over this 100 times already
But here I am once again!

The other day Facebook – I have such a love hate relationship with FB it’s not even funny.
Anyways…Facebook gave me a little post saying look at all the comments/likes you got on these posts of your Amanda, woot, good, job! Go you!

(okay they didn’t really say those words, but it’s close enough)

There was 4 of 5 posts of my showing something I’m working on, some idea I came up with, or my first attempts at my jewellery…
All the popular posts were in some way or another connected to my jewelry creations.
That kinda says a lot right?
People like what I do. Hell the little I have shown has gotten me comments like

-where can I buy that
-omg How much
-When are you going to open a store
-Hey, I have a glass case! Fill it and I’ll sell your goods to my customer – I have no words for how much I LOVE my hairdresser!
-Girl! I want to buy your stuff!
-Christmas is coming, you would be helping me out
-WTF are you waiting for

And it goes on from there..

And yet the idea of creating something that is sell-able. Is fricken SCARY as holy poop to me!
I hid from my metal station for months. Till I couldn’t take the pain of being away from it anymore.
But then I just cleaned it off. Moved my tools around

Then spent everyday since buying and planning new exciting things
Ohhh the ideas I have. The things I want to bring into form.

I feel scared and small and almost near tears as I write this to be honest.
Being seen, is…well it’s fricken hard.
But that’s one of the reasons for joining Effy Wild!

And here’s to a week, where hopefully I will be brave enough to show up and share what I have going on my metal station.

P.S Please read that as I WILL show up and share what I have going on my metal station.

Okay, toodles!

6 comments / Add your comment below

  1. I totally understand the fear but, we have nothing to fear but fear itself. This is from Marianne Williamson. Take it to heart.
    Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
    Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that frightens us.
    We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
    Actually, who are we not to be?
    You are a child of God.
    Your playing small doesn’t serve the world.
    There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
    We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
    It’s not just in some of us, it’s in everyone.
    And as we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
    As we are liberated from our own fears, our presence automatically liberates others.

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